I realized alot of my entries these days are  starting out like "OMG!!!" or "WOAH" etc etc. because i am so suprised at myself for not writing in this like i should. anyway moving on...

basically i have no real point in writing in this today. i just wanted to just be blah blah and type whatever. no real point or story.

Me and Angie had a good laugh a couple of minutes ago because we realized that i tend to second guess myself from liking girls. it goes like this... "Hmmm, maybe that girl doesn't like me back, well then i won't like her back either!!!" then i totally shut down my feelings and move foward. hahah. maybe it would have been funny if i had a youtube clip of it.

Phil always tries to make me angry by saying he likes the girls i like as well. but it never works. haha. i always go "Really!?!? you like her too!?!? then take her!!! seriously you getting a GF is MUCH more important than me finding a GF since your so pitiful and socially awkward!" by then he loses heart to make fun of me and kinda gives up. hahah i love phil.

i tired to make spam fried rice yesterday day. it was a disaster. haha. it still kinda ended up tasting good in a deformitive gulosh kind of way. but the worst part was scrubbing down the frying pan when i was done eating. that was HORRIBLE!

Someone said that if you daydream alot... the kind of day dreams you have can precisely determine the real personality that you are. which i find very werid. i day dream about lot of random unfitting things.

I day dream of being a NFL linebacker just hitting the crap out of people and having lots of money

I also day dream about being a gangleader and hitting the crap out of people and having lots of money

I also day dream i could be a super villian with awesome powers and hit the crap out of people and rob banks...so i can have lots of money

And finally i day dream of meeting the perfect girl and living in a nice house with kids and being comfortable...until she falls asleep and i go hit the crap out of people and steal their money and spend it on hookers and the rest of the left over i put in my bank account...so i have lot sof money

i dunno what i'm talking about anymore. time to go to sleep. but i do have a reoccuring nightmare where i'm chased by zombies and they lead me to the roof of this house and it's a house on a cliff. so i end up jumping of the roof into the ocean. then the dream starts all over and i repeat the same action. i'm not even joking. dead serious...

WOAH!!! I haven't written in this thing in 8 months!?!? dang i bet no one even reads this anymore. haha. i guess i am just writing to myself. But i do have a new computer so i must do something with it. So what is new? not that it really matters.

Spet. 8th is a big date. I am moving to a new starbucks store after over 2 years of my old one. I'm sad to leave my manager and the close bonds i have made with the staff there and the loyal customers. But im happy cuz it kinda like my final exam before i move up the ladder and become a ASM. They will plant me at the store and see what are my strengths and my flaws are and send me to another store as a ASM. i'm one step closer to exotic fruit bowl.

I'm kinda glad that it is raining. No let me rephrase. I love that it is raining. I love it. I hate the sun and all you sun dwellers. I loom in the dark corner waiting for what real Seattle weather is suppose to be like. and finally it is here. I was thinking of my dreams and how i always said that i would want to move out of washington and move to somewhere else. but i realize how much i love the cold gloomy wet weather here and would hate it elsewhere. now i just need to get the hell out of lynnwood (aka lynnhood...aka the city i hate the most in washington. haha. it gets old)

Wait. i'm not done telling you how much i hate the sun. I really hate it. i hate being warm. think about it...it's harder to cool down in the heat than warm up to the cold. i hate to sweat. sweating is gross and nasty. when it got really warm at nights i would sleep on the floor. i will do anything to cool down. but if i'm cold all i need to do is turn on my electric blanket. someone people are like...your emo. no it has nothing to do with emo. cuz i am filled with joy as soon as i see clouds. haha. emo kids do not know the meaning of joy.

so when i become ASM i will try to move down to Seattle. and i will bring my two roommates with me. My moms dog Angel had puppies and we call them Yogurt and Cream Cheese...aka Yogi and C.C. Orginally i was gonna take only C.C. with me cuz thats the one i chose to keep. But recently i fell in love with Yogi as well. I love how Yogi and C.C. have two different personalities. Yogi is more mild mannered and very chill. Super smart and well behaved. She can already learn some commands like sit and will look at with this adorable look. (not really her)

 C.C. on the other hand is a freaking psycho. She's the smaller of the two puppies but super energetic and just likes being crazy. Both are pure white but C.C. for some reason cries alot so her white fur on her face gets stained and we always have to wash her face. Also she has curly hair on the top of her head so when she is acting like a psycho with her face stained she kinda looks like this..

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Haha. kinda a over exaggeration but not by much. anyway i hope to write in this more often. if anybody reads this i guess its also a bonus.

So i'm back. it's been like 5 or 6 months since i last wrote in this. I been working so much and i get tired and i been neglecting xanga. anyway. lets get to it. we have alot to catch up on.

I have been looking to move out of my house once i become an ASM. I still probably have like 4 months or so but i been really excited and was looking at places to live when i do. Definately i will be moving down south. I want to live in Pioneer Square. Sure it has alot of crackheads and super sketchy people but the residents and bussiness owners down there have become like family to me. i can walk down the street and say hi to like 5 people. But its super pricy. Like over a thousand dollars a month for a one bedroom studio. But everything down there is pricy. And personally i don't want to live with anyone. I prefer to be on my own. But i also wouldn;t mind Fremont, Capital Hill, or Belltown. But who knows? I call it the "Fruit Bowl" ambition. Thats what i want my life to be like. I would imagine it like this. I would wake up in my studio or apartment or loft whatever. and walk out to my livingroom/ dining room and have a bowl of fruit sitting on my black dining table that sits like 2 people. Look out my window and see the people of seattle bustling around. I would walk my dog to Pike Place market and pick up a few things like fresh baked bread, cheese, some seafood, maybe grab myself a triple tall soy skinny cinny mocha while i'm at it. Just living the city life. i just can't stand lynnwood anymore. I want to be able to live freely. make new friends. i love my friends i have now. but more the merrier eh? PLus i will convince Moses to move back to Washington and i will secretly house him with none of his family members knowing. hehe.

So i been slowly working more and more at the Chinatown Starbucks. Its located right across the street from Uwajimaya or however you spell that place. Its alot busier than my current store but i realize that i will reall miss my old store. Our customers are nicer and hotter and more interesting. If i could describe the people at Chinatown i would have to say "Soul Less Robots". its a giant machine pumping out espresso at extremely fast paces and people just grabbing there drinks and going. And i can't stand that. I want to talk and connect over friendly service and ask whats new. Not just take an order, ring them up, and give them there drink. My peers say thats why they are gonna transfer me to that store, to make the store more like a cafe and less like a well oiled coffee produing outlet. but still i don't wanna go. plus the places to eat are better arond pioneer square. Chinatwn quite  frankly only has Chinese food. Everytime i go to Uwajimayo to grab something to eat i am severly disapointed and crave ribs, soup, burgers, greek or italian food that i can get at pionner. Anymore Orange chicken and i swear i will vomit right in that line and someone will come slip on it and crack their head open. HEED MY WARNING!!!

I feel my group of friends is getting smaller. And fear i am slowly reducing myself to just being by myself. i don't mind being by myself. but i wish i had more friends. not trying to sound like a loser and be like "someone help! be my friend!" but i might be losing the will to be satisfied which might directly impact my social life. I feel like i am no longer going through extreme emotions. Nothing is overly funny. Sometimes i find myself trying to laugh hard just so i don't feel like a loser. I haven't cried in like years. Even if i am super angry it just comes out as frustration. Every answer is a "sure", "why not", "i don't care". i need a spark. something to catch my interest. it doesn't have to be a someone. it could be a hobby. or a recreational activity. maybe i'm getting old. i been reading alot more. and like to drink tea and write poetry and bird watch and garden and play cribbage and watch Home Shopping Network. make prune smoothies.

I been craving new music. Someone refer me to something. But nothing emo.

wow so its been over a month since i posted. long time. anyway. summer is over. i officially recognized that summer is over when yesterday night at around 12:40 am, the power goes out briefly and i can see lighting out my window...from my basement which is covered by a porch. crazy. did i mention that there must have been a flash flood because i woke up to water coming through my window. not like raindrops seeping through more like like gush. think of in the movies when a hole is punched into a dam. yah it was like that...but on a smaller scale. it was crazy. weather outside is quite dull and i actually like it. i don't like hot weather anyway.

I think moses comes down at the end of this month. yay. i bet you he's fat from all that tacobell.

So i am sad. I just found out that some of my favorite bands are coming to Spokane next monday. I really want to see them but how can if they are like 300 some miles away. By the way, if your a rock band wouldn't it make sense to come to Seattle? C'mon we got more emo butt rockers here than Spokane!! what does Spokane have more than that of Seattle!?!? huh!?!?! so who wants to go to Spokane? i bet you i could find us some housing. think about it. hard.

So it's cougar football season. i mean it's COUGAR football season!! yeah!!! so we lost our first game to a ranked and very powerful Wisconsin. But  what can you say? gotta move on. Some Husky fan came into my work and was like "Go Badgers" (wisconsin team name) to make fun of the cougs. i was like "hahah" as i turn away and mumble curse wordes under my breath at him. oh well. hopefully the cougs prove people wrong.

so Evan is a regular customer at my starbucks who owns his own photography studio. he came in today and asked if i wanted to come in and take some pictures for some casting. and i was like uhhh i dunno i kinda feel werid about it. he was like no worries it'll take like 5 minutes, i need some pan ( i guess that means asians who look asian but not specific to one country...i dunno) asian males and if you get picked you get like 2,000 dollars for one days work. i was like okay!!! ( i know, i sold myself cheap) so i went in a got my pics. i told him i would do nude. he told me i was crazy. i told him he should get a picture of me naked with a starbucks drink in front of my crotch and see if we could send it in and maybe become the new starbucks ad.

after the photo shoot, my manager told me she needs a cut from the 2 grand for all the things shes done for me. so told her i would take a 100 dollars and exchange it into one dollar bills and make it "rain" on her. hahah. then i told her to go fetch me a Evian water and fan me down. you know, since i am a model now and all. she then punched me in the back as i was walking away.

sad times are ahead. i might need to get a new ipod soon. mines been freezing and it's really depressing. i have had it with me for like almost 2 years now. but dano loves his nano. i want the shuffle in atomic green for work out. but i also want the 30 gigabyte one so i can watch movies while i commute to work. porno movies. and have creepy old men looking over my shoulder watching me watch porn. hahah. as we commute to work. at 5 am in the morning. then i would take my earphones off and be like "yeah, she's a great actor so multi talented, a rising star i must say." and we would all nod our heads in agreement. okay i just kind of went off. i don't even know what i am talking about. NEXT!

resistance tubes are so kool. i love them. i must thank phil for inspiring me to buy my own. which leads me to my next story. i bought a set and the handles are rubber. after a couple days the handles tore so i took them back to exchange it. so they told me to grab another set. but i took out the handles and switched them with another companies handles cuz they are made out of plastic so it won't tear when i am pumping massive amounts of resistance and just getting super ripped and huge. hahah. i felt bad at first until i found how sturdy the new handles were. hehe.

everyone knows i can't watch scary movies. i just hate jumpy scenes. and i tend to jump at those parts and start to yell profanites at the screen as i do. but i have watched a couple these past few days and have been good at not being tramatized afterwards. the last movie that really freaked me out was probably The Ring and before that it was Thirteen Ghosts. the trick to watching those kind of movies for me is minimizing the screen with my hands. hahah.  people think i am covering my face but i am actually peeping out the small cracks between my fingers. i really hate it when people don't shut up and keep telling "oh your scared, oh you need to watch this part." i just wanna get hella mean. i want to be like "yeah this movie scares me, but... at least my sister ain't a whore/ my parents aren't divorced/ remember that time you told me not tell anyone that you dumped your pants at the age of 17, oh i'm sorry, did that slip?/i have better grades than you/i had sex on your bed/ i slept over one time and saw your morning wood and i wasn;t impressed. haha.(ps. i am not aiming any of these comments at anyone, just made them up) but something along those lines. cuz being scared of a movie is the least of my worries. hahah

well naptime for me. i have to wake up early as usual. but i did realize there are lot of August birthdays this month. hopefully i don't have to buy too many presents. everyone else expect a hand written card in the mail. the picture will be me...naked...with a starbucks drink covering my crotch. cuz you know, i'm a model now. *slurps Evian water and spits it out on his man servant named Sancho while he is fanning Dan down*